Fic: Hyukjae's First Time
Warnings: Cursing, Alternate Universe (college)
Summary: Hyukjae attends his first fraternity party, hoping to proposition Lee Donghae.
A/N: This is my first ever Super Junior fanfic. Enjoy!
"Hyukjae's First Time"
Hyukjae stumbled over the ledge of the door, nearly face planting into a pile of shoes. He quickly righted himself, blushing, and looked around to see if anyone saw. Everyone in the fraternity house seemed too drunk to notice or care; he breathed a sigh of relief. Steeling himself for what was sure to be a night of start-to-finish humiliation, he purposefully walked into the house and was nearly taken down again, this time by a swaying student wearing underwear on his head. He hugged Hyukjae, whooped loudly in his ear, and pressed a plastic cup of beer into his hand. Hyukjae was left teetering in place for a moment, struggling to regain his bearings through ringing ears and the dim lighting in the room.
He took an unfortunate deep breath, choked on the smell of beer, sweat, and pot, and continued gingerly walking through the crowd. After getting beer spilled on himself (twice) and pirouetting like a ballerina to avoid further incidents at least once, he finally spotted his quarry, leaning against a pool table, drink in hand as he listened animatedly to his friend's story.
Lee Donghae, all around nice guy. As far as Hyukjae knew, Donghae was one of the more popular students at their university, a stunning feat in an institution boasting thousands of students. He was very good looking and had a friendly disposition to match, making him an instant darling with the females. He also participated in a variety of sports and dance-related activities that effectively endeared him to the males as well, and he was accepted into all of the fraternities he rushed for. Yes, Lee Donghae was an all around nice, good looking guy with many friends and good grades. Really, the type of guy any girl would be thrilled to take home to mother. And, according to Hyukjae's best friend Junsu, a total cock whore.
The original source of this information remained rather elusive, if you want Hyukjae's opinion, but apparently it was a fact that Donghae had slept with a large number of his fraternity members, once juggled dates with Heechul, Hankyung, and Siwon on the same night and got lucky with all of them, and had even slept with a professor. Through it all he still retained his innocent, child-like aura and joy--what Hyukjae was looking at was a person who genuinely loved sex and was not ashamed about it.
Hyukjae chewed on his lip nervously and perched on the edge of the couch behind him, deciding that he should stop staring so obviously. He took a tentative sip of his beer and almost gagged at the bitter taste, made worse by the warm temperature. He put his cup on the floor next to him and rubbed sweaty hands on his jeans, trying to contain their nervous clamminess. His leg started bouncing up and down on its own accord, betraying his gut-wrenching, puke-inducing, reality-bending nervousness.
What he didn't tell his best friend Junsu, who was prone in the past to making fun of Hyukjae loudly and for long intervals whenever he found out anything embarrassing about him, was that he was still a virgin.
Others could talk, Hyukjae thought bitterly, but others did not grow up with an over-protective mother and an embarrassing sister who made it virtually impossible for him to find any decent boyfriends during high school. Others also didn't have to contend with massive insecurities about lack of muscles, chicken legs, and a face he had to "grow into." So others could just shut up and take their snickering elsewhere, thank you very much.
Hyukjae realized that he was unconsciously clenching his fist and glaring straight ahead at a frightened looking freshman. He quickly forced himself to relax and move away from the topic in his head, determined not to dwell on it anymore. Besides, Hyukjae reminded himself, after tonight (hopefully) his unfortunate condition will be a thing of the past. Because Donghae was a cock whore and if there was one area where Hyukjae was definitely not shortchanged, it was in the size department.
Junsu's offhand remarks about the nature of Donghae's character had unwittingly sparked intrigue in Hyukjae the moment he heard them. He didn't know Donghae, had never taken a class with him, never spoken to him--hell, he never really thought of his existence until Junsu mentioned it, but that almost made everything better. Here was Hyukjae, a virgin with a big dick, and there was Donghae, a willing size queen. It was almost serendipitous, and who was Hyukjae to ignore the call of fate?
Realizing his stalling tactics for what they were, Hyukjae quickly gave himself a pep talk and reminded himself that there was no room for chickening out tonight. Besides, he struggled to reassure himself, what was the worse that would happen--Donghae would laugh at him? How bad was that? In a school where thousands of students attended, who cared if one Lee Hyukjae propositioned one Lee Donghae and got his ass thrown out onto the street by a pack of burly, drunken fraternity members? Hyukjae ignored the voice screaming I care!!!! desperately in the back of his mind and perked up when he noticed that the guy Donghae was talking to, possibly his lanky, bitchy friend Heechul, had left and Donghae was finally alone. Now or never!
Getting up before he could puke all over the couch, Hyukjae wiped his hands on his jeans one more time and quickly walked over to his prey. He stumbled to a halt in front of Donghae and stood there dumbly when the guy turned in his direction, cup raised to his lips. This close, Hyukjae decided to add intimidation to the list of ailments currently plaguing him because damn, Donghae was even better looking up close! He had the kind of eyes you could stare into for days and soft, fluffy hair that Hyukjae was totally not imagining bobbing over his--okay, enough porn, Hyukjae reprimanded himself. Never watching it again, the babbling voice in the back of his head promised. Now say something! Good god man, you are going to make us the laughing stock of the whole school!
"Um..." Hyukjae started mechanically. "Hi."
Donghae smiled cutely and lowered his cup.
Donghae put his cup onto the pool table and turned fully to Hyukjae.
"Can I help you?"
Oh Jesus Christ what are you going to say?!? Why didn't you plan better! Hyukjae froze, wondering briefly what precipitated the birth of the nagging voice in his head, and what vengeful entity made him sound like Junsu.
"Uh..." Hyukjae started, then stopped. Donghae just looked at him with encouragement and Hyukjae decided that the night could not get any worse. It simply couldn't.
"My name is Hyukjae."
"Okay," Donghae held onto the last syllable, utilizing the classic, 'I'm talking to a crazy person' tone. "I'm Donghae."
Hyukjae bared his teeth in what he hoped could pass off as a smile and hurried onward. "My friend, he told me that you--that is, um...I just. Do you want to sleep with me?"
Donghae raised his eyebrows incredulously and the voice reached screeching point as it screamed at him to abort, abort, abort!!!
"Wow. No one's ever been that upfront about it before."
Hyukjae felt, to his mortification, an extreme blush overtake his face and most likely his entire body. It was like all of his blood cells were rushing to the surface, fighting to break free from living with the most embarrassing, stupid person on the entire planet.
"I'm am so sorry, I--excuse me," he stammered, ready to run out of the house and relocate into the sewer system but a hand on his wrist stopped him.
"Wait." Hyukjae turned around, ready to face his doom.
"I never said I wouldn't."
Hyukjae looked up, incapable of doing anything more than staring like a bewildered sheep.
"Why don't we go up to my room?"
Donghae must have realized that waiting for any sort of response was futile, so he lead Hyukjae through the fraternity house, expertly weaving through the drunken, belligerent crowd with practiced ease. He ignored the occasional wolf whistle and hoot when someone noticed Hyukjae trailing after him, hand in his, and Hyukjae manfully tried to do the same. Finally, after a blur of people and stairs, they arrived in a quieter section. Donghae continued leading him down until they arrived at a locked door at the end of the hallway.
"Sorry, have to keep people out," Donghae said sheepishly as he unlocked the door. Hyukjae could do no more than nod and try to not throw up.
And then the door opened and Hyukjae was in. He let out a long breath as Donghae turned around to lock the door again and continued to stay stiff and unresponsive as he watched the other boy moving through the room, occasionally picking up a stray sock or underwear.
"Sorry it's a bit messy," he said, "I wasn't expecting any company." He grinned wolfishly and Hyukjae blushed brightly again.
"Do you mind if I change?"
Donghae smiled encouragingly, like he was talking to a drooling infant, and began unzipping his tight jeans.
"Oh!" Hyukjae blushed and turned around to give him privacy. He clenched his fist when he heard Donghae chuckling behind him, great, he's laughing at you. Real sexy, Hyukjae, and focused instead on the room. It was spacious enough, with a large queen-sized bed in the middle of the room, think of the mileage on that bad boy, (shut up, will you!), and a dresser and desk across the way. The rest of the room was overtaken by a large television and entertainment system, with posters of boy bands and soccer players functioning as wallpaper.
"You can turn around now." Donghae sounded amused.
Hyukjae did and saw that Donghae had changed into a comfortable pair of gray sweatpants and an extremely fitted tee that highlighted his muscular arms and trim waist. Incredibly, he looked even better now than he did downstairs with his button-down shirt and styled hair.
"So," Donghae bounced onto his bed and patted the space next to him, "what did your friend tell you about me?"
Is this a trap? Okay Hyukjae, just move slow and don't say anything stupid.
Hyukjae nodded to the imaginary voice and gingerly sat down next to Donghae, ready to spring up and get the hell out of there at the first sign of trouble.
"Oh come on," Donghae teased, a smile on his face, "he must've told you something for you to proposition a stranger. What year are you, by the way?"
"Senior," Hyukjae mumbled.
"Oh cool, me too. It's weird that we've never been in the same class. What's your major?"
"Ooh, fancy. I'm liberal arts, a.k.a. I'm just doing this for the degree." Donghae laughed, seemingly delighted at his own self, and Hyukjae cracked a small smile. Okay, he's nice. Maybe you can get out of this with your dignity intact. Wait--you never had any to begin with. The voice cackled just like Junsu and Hyukjae winced.
"Are you okay?"
"Um, yeah. Just--I'm sorry, this was really stupid and rude of me. I don't even know what I was thinking only I'm still a virgin and--" what did I tell you about saying stupid things!--"I just wanted to get it out of the way. I really haven't ever done anything like this before, I'm sorry if I insulted you--"
Donghae put a hand over Hyukjae's mouth. "Hyukjae, was it?"
He nodded affirmatively.
"I'm not insulted, and less talking please."
Without warning, Donghae leaned forward and placed a kiss on Hyukjae's lips. The other boy froze and stared dumbly ahead.
"You're so cute," Donghae said, smiling as he ran his thumb over Hyukjae's lower lip. He followed that with his tongue and Hyukjae found himself on the receiving end of one of the hottest French kisses ever to happen to anyone, period.
Hyukjae had participated in make out sessions before, of course. There were a few boys and even a girl or two whom he had dallied with both in high school and college, but nothing prepared him for the sharp, desperate spike of lust that shot through him when Donghae grabbed his face, tilted his chin, and pressed their lips together, sucking Hyukjae's lower lip into his mouth without any inhibitions whatsoever.
Hyukjae didn't know what the hell to do with his hands or anything, really, but Donghae didn't seem to mind. He continued sucking on Hyukjae's lower lip and moaned when the other boy opened his mouth to let their tongues tangle. Goosebumps rose harshly on Hyukjae's skin at the sound and he tentatively put his hands on Donghae's ribs and began kissing back.
"Mmm..." Donghae pulled away with a loud smack and started placing little kisses all over Hyukjae's lips, the other trying to keep up. "You have such nice lips," Donghae said, panting and pushing his body closer to Hyukjae's. "Put your hands around my waist," he ordered.
Hyukjae did as told, his hands shaking slightly as he wrapped his arms around Donghae's very warm body. He nearly fell backwards when Donghae shifted even further, pushing his legs apart and practically sitting on Hyukjae's lap.
"You can touch me wherever you want," he advised in a low whisper, said directly into Hyukjae's ear. Holy shit, this is really going to happen!!!
Donghae stayed in the general ear area while his lower body undulated against Hyukjae's, touching their torsos and groins together but not really, never letting Hyukjae feel just how aroused Donghae really was.
I hope he's enjoying this as much as I aaaaaaaaaa- Hyukjae's internal rambling was cut off when Donghae placed a kiss on his earlobe and sucked it into his mouth. It sent another wave of heat through his body. He sure does like sucking on things, the voice observed. Donghae moaned again and kissed lower, rubbing his tongue over a patch of skin right under Hyukjae's ear and biting on it softly.
"Does that feel good?" Donghae asked with a smirk.
Hyukjae didn't have the brain capacity at the moment to do more than nod and make a desperate gurgling noise. Dongahe just smiled happily and sucked on the area some more, giving Hyukjae a large, red hickey.
"There," Donghae said, pulling away to look at his handy work. "Now your friends will believe you when you tell them about this the next day."
Hyukjae was about to protest and say that he would never go around besmirching Donghae's name with his friends and that a gentleman never kisses and tells, when the smile on Donghae's lips turned into an evil little smirk and the boy leaned in close to whisper in Hyukjae's ear again.
"That's also the spot I love getting played with the most," he said, his breath tickling Hyukjae and spreading moisture over his skin. "So next time you'll know what to do."
The implications of that didn't even have time to be processed before Donghae shoved Hyukjae hard, sending him sprawling back on the bed. His head almost hit the headboard and Donghae kneeled up, pulled Hyukjae's body further down the bed by his legs, and stood up.
Damn he's strong! the voice observed. Hyukjae couldn't argue with that, dazed as he still was from the kissing and sucking and biting and throwing, and could only watch with rising panic and lust as Donghae got up and ran a teasing hand down Hyukjae's torso, almost making him jump when his hand ghosted over his erection.
"Do you want to watch?" Donghae asked.
"Uh?" Hyukjae was dazed and resigned to the fact that he had absolutely no control over Donghae, himself, or the situation.
"You're not much of a talker, hmm?"
Thankfully, Donghae didn't seem to want an answer since he just reached down and pulled his shirt over his head and threw it on the floor. Hyukjae gulped and stared at Donghae's hard, smooth chest. He wanted to run his hands over his entire torso, pausing to squeeze at Donghae's pectoral muscles and maybe play with a nipple before moving further down, watching those delectable abs squeeze and contract at the pressure.
"Do I look good?"
Hyukjae was amazed at how confident Donghae was, standing half naked before him with an erection straining the front of his sweats and a nonchalant, devil-may-care expression on his face.
"Um," Hyukjae swallowed carefully when his voice came out hoarse and deep. "Yeah, you do."
Donghae's eyes got a little darker and more narrow at the sound and he teasingly ran a finger over the thin line of soft hair leading into his pants. Hyukjae was imagining playing with that hair, maybe scratching at the skin underneath with a nail and causing goosebumps to rise, maybe even kissing at it and licking it to tease when Donghae smacked Hyukjae's leg hard, causing him to jump and pull his eyes away.
"Hey, you're not paying attention to me!" He glared accusingly.
"I was!" Hyukjae protested, not entirely sure of what was going on or what he had gotten himself into with this kid. While undeniably hot and nice (a good bonus), Donghae was also more than a little needy and Hyukjae was not experienced enough to know what he needed exactly, or how to give it to him.
"You have to look at me," Donghae advised, still pouting.
Donghae's pout turned into a scowl and Hyukjae's brain went into panicky overtime, the voice yelling at him to appease him now, you idiot! You're so close, don't blow it!!
"Okay, I'll look only at you."
Donghae's face cleared and he smiled again. He reached down and pulled his sweatpants off along with his briefs. He kicked them away and then paused again, almost posing in his stance. Hyukjae was careful this time to look at Donghae's eyes and smile before running his eyes over the rest of that irresistable body, pausing only for the briefest of moments at his nice cock before making eye contact again.
It seemed to be what Donghae needed because he smiled in delight and briefly ran a hand over his erection before bouncing onto the bed, next to Hyukjae.
"Okay, it's your turn now."
He's not serious, right?! Hyukjae panicked inside and stared desperately at Donghae in embarrassment. Oh god, he's definitely serious.
"Um...." Hyukjae trailed off, not knowing what to say.
"Come on, you'll have to get naked eventually." Donghae reminded him. "I want to see."
He looked like an eager child in a candy store and Hyukjae forced himself to relax marginally. Donghae was throwing him off more than he liked and, had he a premonition of how the night would turn out, he would never have propositioned Donghae. Whatever pleasure he took from the night (and there was a lot of it, physically), was not worth the strain of keeping up with Donghae's almost mercurial mood swings and demands. I did tell him I'm a virgin right? He knows I'm a virgin, what am I supposed to do, perform a strip show?
"Hyukjae?" Donghae asked, and pushed his face uncomfortably close to Hyukjae's as he leaned over.
"Uh, what...what should I do?" Hyukjae stammered.
Donghae smiled and pressed a quick kiss to Hyukjae's lips.
"Just take your clothes off, that's all."
"Okay." Hyukjae swallowed and tried not to shake. "Maybe we could turn out the lights?"
Donghae frowned. "No, that's no fun. I like to watch. Come on, it's not that bad."
"I know, but I've never done this before."
"All the more reason to do it now. Just do it, it's like pulling off a band aid. Besides," Donghae's voice got lower and more sultry, "I think you're really cute. I'm sure you're hot, there's nothing to be ashamed of."
Was that a compliment? I have no idea, Hyukjae thought back to the Junsu-voice.
"Should--do you want me to get up too?"
The question, whispered as it was by a Hyukjae who was on the verge of self-combusting, seemed to clue Donghae in on some of his inner turmoil.
"Aww," he cooed, "you're so shy, Hyukjae. It's cute. You don't have to get up, why don't I help you out."
He straddled Hyukjae's legs and slunk his body up, dipping into a graceful arch and rubbing slowly up Hyukjae's torso. He pressed a few kisses on Hyukjae's neck along the way and let his body weight rest completely on the other when he reached his mouth. Hyukjae moaned and wrapped an arm around his waist again and Donghae kissed him, coaxing his mouth open so their tongues could brush together again. He seemed to loose himself in the kiss as he began rubbing his body against Hyukjae's, breathing harshly through his nose as Hyukjae pushed his tongue forward and explored Donghae's mouth.
The room was silent except for the sound of their lips and tongues smacking together, separating and meeting again as they moaned. Saliva trailed down Hyukjae's jaw and Donghae pulled harshly away with a desperate moan.
"Oh god, you kiss really good," he panted, hunched over Hyukjae's neck. Hyukjae felt his confidence return at that and he ran a hand over Donghae's smooth back. Donghae shivered in delight before pulling away.
"Can I?" he asked, indicating Hyukjae's shirt. He smiled when Hyukjae nodded and slowly pulled it off, helping Hyukjae sit up to get it all the way off.
Hyukjae lay back down again and fisted the bed spread in an effort to not cover himself up as Donghae's eyes ran up and down his torso.
"Sexy," Donghae smirked. Can I die now please? Unless he means it, in which case--nope, still embarrassing as hell. Death is the only option.
Donghae turned around while still straddling him, affording Hyukjae with a view of the most incredible ass he had ever seen. It was round, pert, and fleshy and he drooled while imagining defiling that ass six ways to Sunday. He didn't even notice when Donghae had taken off his shoes and socks until the boy turned around, an impish grin on his face.
"Now for the really good part." He reached for Hyukjae's belt and had everything undone and pulled off before Hyukjae could even think about protesting. Donghae was immersed in his task and got up to pull Hyukjae's pants and boxers off all the way before stopping, mouth hanging open at the sight of Hyukjae's massive penis.
Ha! This should shut him up, the voice vindictively thought, and Hyukjae had to agree. The look of awe on Donghae's face was extremely complimentary and Hyukjae finally felt like he had one over on the other boy.
It IS a nice dick, the voice in his head said, and Hyukjae nodded. He and Donghae stared at his package together. Surrounded by neatly groomed hair was the long, thick shaft. It was pink with a bright red head (Hyukjae had been aroused now for a good half hour), and a throbbing vein ran along the underside. Hanging below were a pair of large balls, the cherry on the cake. Hyukjae almost felt like smirking and crossing his arms behind his head like the over-confident douche-bags did in the pornos he watched as Donghae continued staring noiselessly at his cock.
"Hey, you're not paying attention to me," Hyukjae teased and smiled when Donghae finally looked up at him and chuckled.
"Sorry, it's just---" he looked at Hyukjae's dick again and trailed off. His mouth once more inched open, making him look like clueless.
"So..." Hyukjae was starting to get uncomfortable. Donghae shook his head and slowly, tentatively straddled Hyukjae's legs again. He bent down and nuzzled his face in Hyukjae's pubic hair, causing the other boy to grip the sheets harder in an effort not to shoot through the ceiling, and ran his cheek up and over Hyukjae's dick, as if marking it. He placed a quick, sucking kiss to the tip before sitting up and smiling shyly at Hyukjae.
Hyukjae couldn't quite put his finger on it, but something in the atmosphere changed. Up until this point, Donghae had pushed, pulled, and bullied his way through the entire experience. It was as if, through the unveiling of his dick, Donghae was finally starting to take Hyukjae seriously.
"Let me take the edge off," Donghae said, looking up at Hyukjae, his hand still around the other's dick. Hyukjae nodded and braced himself, his hand clenched in the bedsheets as he watched Donghae lick his lips once before wrapping them around his head. He moaned deeply, both from the feeling of Donghae's tongue playing with his slit and the visual of those red lips stretched around his own flesh. He tried to keep his head up for as long as possible but threw it back in pleasure when Donghae cautiously took more and more into his mouth.
He groaned deeply when he felt Donghae's tongue moving against his shaft and his mouth sucking before he pulled back with a loud pop and ran his tongue over his swollen lips, collecting all of the saliva and precum. He ran his hand up and down Hyukjae's shaft and, with a determined expression, started bobbing his head up and down, each time taking more and more in.
"Oh god, Donghae!" Hyukjae exclaimed and threaded his fingers through Donghae's hair. The other boy smiled up and him mischievously.
"Come in my mouth," he ordered, before holding Hyukjae steady at the base and going down on him until his lips hit his hand. Hyukjae watched as his erection stretched the inside of Donghae's mouth, forming a lump in the other's cheek. He reached down and caressed Donghae's face, thrusting up a bit when he could feel his own hand on his dick through Donghae's skin. Donghae just chuckled and sent such pleasurable vibrations through Hyukjae that his legs spasmed and bent at the knees without his control.
Donghae started squeezing Hyukjae at the base and moving his mouth up and down while simultaneously sucking. He choked a little on each downward movement when Hyukjae's erection went too far down his throat and slurped loudly when he reached the top again. All of the sounds were adding to the fire running through Hyukjae. Donghae was literally sucking his mind out through his dick, he couldn't even begin to process a single thought, couldn't even stop himself from thrusting up and up, not even when he heard Donghae gag again and again.
"I'm gonna cum!" He yelled, forcing his head up to watch as Donghae pulled off until only Hyukjae's head was in his mouth. His hand started jerking Hyukjae off furiously, moving so fast it became a blur. He tensed, his entire body becoming stiff as he came and pumped his load into Donghae's willing mouth. The other boy moaned out loud and swallowed quickly, making sure to get every drop, even though Hyukjae was fisting his hair as hard as he possibly could and thrusting uncontrollably.
Hyukjae felt his entire body quiver in pleasure as the last of his cum was sqeezed out of him and he melted back onto the bed, completely and totally boneless. He panted uncontrollably and rode out the last of the tremors wracking his body, shivering a bit as the sweat on his skin began to dry.
His eyes flew open at the husky voice next to his ear and he turned to see Donghae cuddled beside him, smiling despite his red, used lips. Hyukjae smiled back and Donghae shifted, throwing his leg over Hyukjae's torso. Hyukjae could feel the other's erection poking him.
"That was the most amazing thing ever."
"We're not even done yet." Donghae answered, murmuring and casting his eyes down as if suddenly shy. Hyukjae debated briefly before moving in for Donghae's lips--No, oh my god the taste!! YOU'RE on those lips!--and kissing him briefly. Donghae just smiled and kissed him back.
"Hey, you're not going to fall asleep, right?"
"Uh, no?" Hyukjae hoped not, but honestly sleep sounded like the best thing in the world right now.
"Good, because you still have to prepare me."
Say what now??
Hyukjae was suddenly wide awake, and he dislodged Donghae when he sat up in bed.
"What? Now, like tonight? But I'm--I just came, I can't..." he trailed off, feeling stupid and inadequate to admit he couldn't get it up again.
Donghae just smirked. "Don't worry, by the time we're done you'll be hard again, I can guarantee it."
Hyukjae stared at Donghae's irritating little smirk, feeling significantly looser after his orgasm.
"You're pretty cocky, aren't you?"
Donghae threw his head back and laughed. "Well, the same could be said for you, right?" He squeezed Hyukjae's dick and winked. Hyukjae winced in pain.
"Okay, let's move on!" Donghae sounded annoyingly chipper. He bent over Hyukjae and rooted through the drawer of his bed-side table. He came back with some items and folded his legs underneath him, his erection pointing proudly upward.
"You'll need this later," he said, throwing a condom Hyukjae's way. "And we'll need this now," he pushed a tube of lube into Hyukjae's hand, threw himself onto his back, and spread his legs apart eagerly.
"So you're going to squeeze some lube onto your fingers, you don't need too much at first or else you'll make a big mess. Do your pointer and middle fingers, it's easiest. And then just push the first one in. Don't go too fast at first, okay?"
Hyukjae stared down at the lube in his hand and then Donghae's face, flabbergasted for the nth time that night.
"Uh...we're really going to do this now?"
"Well, isn't it what you came here for?" Donghae looked confused and slightly annoyed. "What, did you get your orgasm and now you're done? That's not the way it works, pal."
"No! I don't mean it like that, I mean--" Hyukae exhaled in frustration and tried to collect his thoughts. "I mean we don't even know each other, are you really okay with sleeping with me?"
"Well, why not? You propositioned me, remember?"
"Yes, of course I do. But I honestly didn't expect you to say yes."
Donghae smiled gently and sat up, his hand cupping Hyukjae's face as the other looked at him. "Look, I know you're a virgin, I don't want to force you to do anything. But honestly, why wouldn't I say yes? You wanted a good time, I'm always up for a good time, and you're good looking."
"Is that really all it takes?" Hyukjae remained skeptical.
"For me, yes," Donghae said, shrugging. He lay back down on the bed and looked up at Hyukjae with encouragement. "Stop worrying so much, it's just sex. People make it out to be like it's the end of the word, but honestly, if two people are willing I don't see why the hell they can't just do it. It's natural for us and it doesn't always have to mean marriage and commitment and worrying."
Hyukjae mulled over Donghae's words while absentmindedly opening the lube and pushing a dollop onto his hand. He tested the substance between his fingers and thought about what Donghae had said. He was a coward, he knew it. Almost all of his courage had been used up in asking Donghae for this chance, and he fully expected to get nothing out of this night other than a black eye. He was aware that the only reason he got as far as he did was through the force of Donghae's will. He made eye contact with the other through his eyelashes and resolved his nerves. Donghae was right--it was just sex. Sex is good. It's just fun between two people and if anyone gives you a hard time you can just say they're jealous that they didn't have the same good time you did.
"So." Hyukjae cleared his throat. "I just push it in?"
Donghae nodded, a wide smile on his face. "Yep, just put a little more lube on your fingers first."
Hyukjae did as told and faced Donghae's spread legs. He gasped a little as Donghae spread them even further, knees hooked over his hands as he lifted his butt a little higher, completely exposing his hole. Tentatively, Hyukjae reached over and touched it, almost pulling back as Donghae reflexively clenched. He swallowed and put his finger directly over the hole and slowly pushed in.
It was a weird experience, to be pushing into something so soft and yielding, yet restricting. The ring of muscle was tight and Hyukjae wanted to pull out, scared of hurting the other. But Donghae groaned and rubbed his foot against Hyukjae's back, encouraging him. He pushed further, his first instinct to just go straight but a pained gasp from Donghae let him know that wasn't right. He bent his finger then, which was already up to the first knuckle, and followed the shape of Donghae's insides. This let him travel farther, until he was in all the way.
"Oh yeah, that's good," Donghae groaned. "Push it in and out."
Hyukjae did and watched, fascinated, as his finger slowly fucked Donghae.
"Yeah baby, now put two in."
Hyukjae froze momentarily, unsure if that was even possible. "Are you sure?" He asked, nervous.
"Yes," Donghae said, panting and sweating. "Put the middle finger in first and let the pointer follow."
"Okay," Hyukjae said and did as instructed. It took a couple of tries, and more force this time, but he did it and felt unaccountably proud of himself. He pushed them forward and back softly, watching as Donghae bit his lip and clenched his eyes shut.
"Is it really good?"
Donghae nodded. "Mmhmm, it is." His voice was breathy and hoarse and he finally opened his eyes to look at Hyukjae. "I like it, not every guy does."
"Have you ever," Hyukjae blushed, "been on top?"
"Yes, that's fun too. It's all good, baby."
"But you prefer this?"
"Yes." Donghae was starting to look irritated again, so Hyukjae pushed in harder and faster to compensate.
"Now scissor them."
"Okay." Hyukjae carefully spread his fingers apart, doing it harder when Donghae told him to, reassured when he said it didn't hurt too much. "Besides," Donghae pointed out, "it would be worse if you didn't do it."
Hyukjae pulled out after a while and Donghae indicated the condom next to them with his head. "Put it on." He smirked, an arrogant look on his face. "See, I told you you would be hard."
Hyukjae looked down and saw he was right. He rolled the condom on, trying to make it look like he had done this before, and put more lube on his erection and Donghae's hole. Just touching it like that, as if he had every right to touch such a private part of the other boy, made his body throb in pleasure and a hot sweat break out over his skin.
Donghae took a deep breath and relaxed his body, then indicated with a nod that he was ready. Hyukjae gulped, this is it man, goodbye virginity! and shoved his penis at Donghae's hole. It bent uncomfortably for a second before sliding up over the other's balls, the lube making it slick and messy.
Oh man, you can't even get it in! He's going to start laughing any second now! Hyukjae braced himself for that, but Donghae just placed his left leg on Hyukjae's shoulder and, through a feat of impressive flexibility, reached over and grabbed Hyukjae at the base.
"You're really big, you have to hold it steady. Here, and put your other hand here," he indicated the middle. "That's good. It'll not want to go in, you just have to push it. Don't worry about hurting me, you stretched me good."
Hyukjae wrapped his hands around his dick and placed the head against Donghae's hole again. He could feel Donghae's foot rubbing up and down his side, and he smiled at the action. Taking a deep, steadying breath, he once again started pushing forward. The head of his dick went in a little before it started bending again, but he kept going through the discomfort and it finally popped in all the way. Donghae let out a choked gurgle and Hyukjae looked at him in panic, but the other boy was lost to reality, his head thrown back, eyes clenched shut, and teeth digging into his bottom lip. He looked beautiful and masculine, and Hyukjae never wanted anything more in his life than to look at that image forever. He pressed onward, going slowly and watching Donghae's face for any nuance of discomfort. There were a few times when he had to stop and wait for the other to adjust, but after ten minutes of stopping and slow progress, he was in all the way.
"Are you okay?" he asked.
Donghae groaned and pushed his head deeper into his pillow. "Hyukjae..."
Hyukjae felt a thrill of pleasure run through him at hearing his name groaned in such a helpless voice. He tentatively reached forward and ran a hand over Donghae's sweaty hair. The other opened his eyes and smiled at him.
"I'm okay. How do you feel?"
Hyukjae blushed and shifted awkwardly on his knees. "It feels amazing," he whispered.
"Yeah?" Donghae had a teasing grin on his face. "You feel amazing to me."
Hyukjae was still red but could feel his lips stretching over his gums in his signature smile. Donghae laughed when he saw it and reached for Hyukjae.
"You're really adorable."
Donghae pulled him and Hyukjae moved forward, careful to not hurt the other boy who was already almost bent in double, and the two met for a sweet kiss. Hyukjae could still taste the bitterness on the other's mouth and gasped when he realized it was from him. It took him off guard and he found it incredibly hot, hotter than the last time he tasted himself there.
"You have really good stamina," Donghae pointed out.
"Well, I don't want to hurt you."
"I'm ready now, you don't have to wait anymore."
Hyukjae bit his lip and shifted around a little to get more comfortable. He grabbed onto Donghae's thighs and pulled out a little before thrusting in slowly. A rush of heat coursed through his veins and he groaned loudly at the feeling. It was more incredible than anything he ever felt when jacking off to porn, more incredible than every kiss he ever had combined, even better than the blowjob he just had. He could feel his stomach muscles harden and the veins in his arms stand out as he clenched his body to keep his control. He pulled out again and repeated the process, keeping an eye on Donghae as he sped up and thrust shallowly. He felt Donghae move a little, his backside coming off the bed a fraction more just as he thrust inside, and suddenly Donghae let out a loud, deep cry, his eyes shooting open and his stomach and leg muscles spasming violently.
"What?" Hyukjae shouted, in a panic.
"Fuck!! Do that again, now!"
Hyukjae tried, but he lost the angle. Telling Donghae to wait a moment, he carefully shifted so that the other boy's left leg was now completely over his shoulder and next to his head. He then lifted his own leg so that he was kneeling on one knee. Donghae watched and quickly placed his hands onto the headboard behind him when he was sure Hyukjae was ready. He gave a quick nod, clearly anticipating a hard ride.
Well, Hyukjae would be the one to give it to him tonight.
Feeling confident now that he clearly saw how to give Donghae pleasure, Hyukjae started to move, starting slowly at first and barely pulling out, then doing it harder and faster. He changed the angle of his hips and almost bit his tongue off when Donghae shouted again, his body once more practically rippling in pleasure. Hyukjae moaned at the sight and lost all control, his dick pistoning in and out of Donghae's hole, his balls slapping the other's ass.
He hunched over and didn't let up on his furious pace, feeling like his entire body was going to explode in pleasure, with his dick at the epicenter. He gripped Donghae's thigh and started kissing the other's leg, knee, whatever was in his vicinity. Donghae moaned and opened his eyes, and Hyukjae bit down on his leg.
"Ah! Fuck you're good at this Hyukie! Give it more, harder, harder!"
"You're so fuckin bossy!" Hyukjae groaned, finally expressing what he was thinking all night. He didn't want to admit that Donghae's little attitude was starting to grow on him.
"I know what I want, and I want you!" Donghae almost wailed, his voice hitching when Hyukjae slammed into his prostate again.
"Oh god Donghae, you're so..." Hyukjae couldn't finish the sentence, didn't even know what he wanted to say in the first place, and instead reached down and wrapped a hand around Donghae's dick. He didn't need to jerk his hand, he just created a tight tunnel and let the force of his thrusts push Donghae into it again and again.
"Oh shit!" Donghae's hand joined his own and squeezed, the two of them jerking him off together. Hyukjae felt a sudden jolt of pleasure at the visual and sped up his thrusts, feeling his orgasm coming. He flicked his hand over the head of Donghae's dick, almost loosing his grip in the precum, just at the same time as he hit his prostate. Donghae screamed and spread his legs even more as he started convulsing. He let go of his erection and clenched both hands around the headboard again as he thrust mindlessly into the air, his hole clenching and pulsing around Hyukjae as cum spurted out of his dick.
"Oh fuck, Hyukjae..." His head lolled to the side, small tremors still riding through his body and Hyukjae groaned and clenched his teeth as he thrust one more time inside, finally letting his orgasm take him over.
"Donghae!" he screamed, his back hunching over as he spasmed and filled the condom. He kept thrusting into Donghae's heat, riding out his orgasm as his mouth hung open in a silent scream.
Time was suspended as they held onto each other tightly, panting heavily and waiting for the torturous spasms of pleasure to stop. Donghae moaned and slipped his leg off Hyukjae's shoulder, massaging it as the pain finally caught up with him. Hyukjae slowly backed off and pulled out. He watched as his penis left Donghae's hole gaping wide open and clenching around air. Hyukjae felt like he could've come again from that visual alone. He pulled off the condom, tied the end, and threw it into the waste basket next to the bed.
"Are--" Hyukjae's voice croaked and he cleared it, "are you okay?"
Donghae couldn't answer, just moaned helplessly and rubbed his face against his pillow.
"Do you have any tissues?"
Donghae pointed weakly at his desk and Hyukjae got up on shaky legs to collect a few. He had to hold onto various objects on his walk back to the bed, not sure if he could support himself. He sat down and carefully cleaned off Donghae's stomach, then his hole, making sure to get the most of the lube on the tissue. He looked carefully, inspecting it for blood. There wasn't any, but Donghae's skin still looked red and irritated. He threw the tissues out, then helped Donghae close his legs. The other boy just watched him quietly the whole time.
Hyukjae stayed seated, suddenly not sure what to do. Should he leave, or stay? What was the etiquette here? Donghae must have sensed his concern because he patted the space next to him and put his arms around Hyukjae when the other lay down again.
"Stay the night."
"Okay," Hyukjae whispered back.
The room was quiet and Donghae was soft and warm beside him.
Hyukjae took a deep, fortifying breath as he went over the events of the night. It was an eye-opening experience to be sure, and as he glanced over at Donghae he could feel a smile overtaking his face at the peaceful look on the other's handsome face. His heart filled with feelings of thankfulness and tenderness--he owed a lot to the boy who lay next to him, who could easily have laughed in his face and made him the laughing stock of their entire school, and instead chose to walk him through one of the most important and amazing experiences of his life. It wasn't a perfect night and there were definitely moments when he wanted to smack the boy in front of him, but it was amazing nonetheless.
He didn't think he would ever be able to forget about Lee Donghae.
A thought entered his head as he propped his head up on his hand and started playing with Donghae's hair. He dismissed it quickly as nonsense, but it came back even stronger when Donghae turned his head and smiled at him with that charming grin.
Dude, you propositioned a total stranger tonight. You're the man.
Hyukjae smiled at the voice, that still sounded like Junsu, but was no longer mocking him.
"Hmm?" he answered, looking at Hyukjae.
"Would...would you want to hang out sometime? We could get coffee or something."
Donghae frowned and turned over to mirror Hyukjae's position, his head propped up by his hand. They were now facing each other, close enough to breathe the same air.
"You mean like a date?"
Hyukjae blushed and looked down. "Yeah, like a date."
Donghae was quiet as he looked at Hyukjae. He was more serious than Hyukjae had ever seen him.
"I don't know. You're a great guy Hyukjae, I really mean that. But I don't want a boyfriend now."
Hyukjae frowned. "Why not? You said it yourself that I'm a great guy. I mean, I--I don't have a lot of experience, but I think I would make a good boyfriend."
"I know you would. I'm jealous of that guy already." Donghae pouted.
Hyukjae laughed and stroked the other's fine hair again. "There's no need to be jealous, if it's you."
"But Hyukie, we're just kids." Hyukjae looked on in concern as Donghae suddenly sat up, pulled his knees up to his chest, and hugged them close to himself. "Boys, really. And boys don't make good boyfriends, ironically. I always pictured myself settling down after college, maybe with an older guy. Someone mature."
"Well, I'm technically older than you. And we're almost out of college." Hyukjae spoke gently and sat up next to Donghae before tentatively placing a hand on the other's sweaty back. Donghae buried his face in his arms before peeking one eye out cutely and smiling.
"You make a good point."
"Have you ever had a boyfriend before?" Hyukjae asked.
Donghae was quiet for a moment before answering. "Yeah, I did. But he left."
Hyukjae bit his lip and mulled over that answer for a bit. "Well, we don't have to be boyfriends, you know. You said it yourself, sex doesn't always have to mean commitment and worrying. The same goes for a date."
Donghae sat up and stared deep into Hyukjae's eyes. Hyukjae stayed quiet and still, afraid of startling the other and ruining the moment. Donghae's serious face melted after a minute and he suddenly smiled, brightly and full of mischief.
"Coffee, hmm? You do know," he pounced on Hyukjae and shoved the other back onto the bed, "some people say 'going out for coffee' is a euphemism for sex, right?"
Hyukjae chuckled and hugged the other boy close to him. "Could I shove a sock in your mouth next time?"
Donghae threw his head back and laughed loudly. "You know you love my bossiness."
Yeah, he thought, smiling as they settled down together on one pillow and Donghae pulled the comforter over them, I think I really do.